The next post on the 31 day challenge is “What are you afraid of?” I had started a post about my fears of spiders, clowns and dark water. And then yesterday I had a semi-traumatic experience. I got stuck in an elevator. It’s amazing how getting stuck in an elevator can show you how claustrophobic you are.
It was at the parking garage where I park for work. I got in the elevator and the doors slammed shut. My first reaction was, “oh crap what was that?” I get to the floor where my car is and the doors get stuck opening. Half an hour later the fire department finally got me out. It wasn’t until I got out of the elevator that I realized how terrifying it really was.
It made me realize that the thing I fear most is dying before I’ve really lived. There are so many things in life I want to do. I want to travel and experience things. I want to grow old with my husband and spend our lives together. I want to see my son grow up. I want to build a house, get a tattoo, get my pHd. There are so many things I want to do in life and my biggest fear is not being able to do them.
I never would have guessed that I would be so afraid of that. But there I was, stuck in the elevator, nervous that it was going to crash, thinking about all the things I haven’t done yet wondering if I was ever going to do them. As soon as those doors opened, I was so relieved I almost cried. I didn’t but there it was.
So there is the story of my life changing event and what I’m afraid of!! Stay tuned for more posts!
So my attempts to start a blog failed miserably. I thought if I gave myself a list of things to post about, it would help me get it going along. Obviously I was wrong. Life with a brand new baby is more time consuming than I ever could have imagined. Now that he’s a little older, we have finally gotten him on a schedule, sleeping through the night. I actually have free time in the evenings now!
In other exciting news, I found a job! It’s three days a week at a real estate management firm. I never realized how great part time is for moms. It’s just enough that I feel like I’m getting out and having a life of my own but not so much that I’m missing my little man all the time. We still get plenty of time together but now he gets to spend 3 days with grandma and papi!!
So the 31-day blog challenge that I started….I left off at the subject of favorite quote. Honestly it stumped me. I was hoping I could come up with something profound and life altering. But, alas, I couldn’t find anything that really struck home for me. I gave up on finding something profound and just went with something that struck a cord with me. I think the best I could find was a quote from Dr. Seuss:
“You can find magic wherever you look. Sit back and relax, all you need is a book.”
When I was little, I hated to read. I could never sit still long enough to read one page let alone a whole book. My mother was devastated. She loved to read and always hope I would enjoy it to. Something that we could share. As I got older, I started to enjoy it a little more. I was able to read and enjoy books but I wasn’t a diehard book lover. Honestly it wasn’t until I was in grad school that I discovered my love for reading. I mean who wants to read about marketing strategies when you can be whisked away to far away lands and go on crazy adventures? At this point, I mostly just re-read books I had already read trying to relive the adventure….especially since, who has the time to go to the library in grad school and actually take out new books to read? Once I was out of grad school, and started working, I invested in an iPad and the whole book world was at my fingertips. I mean classic books are available to you for free!!! And you can connect to the library and take books out. It’s just an amazing the capabilities I have to go anywhere in the world and still stay sitting in my chair.
Moral of the story: books are awesome and everyone should read when they have the chance.