Fears

The next post on the 31 day challenge is “What are you afraid of?”  I had started a post about my fears of spiders, clowns and dark water. And then yesterday I had a semi-traumatic experience.  I got stuck in an elevator. It’s amazing how getting stuck in an elevator can show you how claustrophobic you are.

It was at the parking garage where I park for work. I got in the elevator and the doors slammed shut. My first reaction was, “oh crap what was that?” I get to the floor where my car is and the doors get stuck opening. Half an hour later the fire department finally got me out. It wasn’t until I got out of the elevator that I realized how terrifying it really was.

It made me realize that the thing I fear most is dying before I’ve really lived. There are so many things in life I want to do. I want to travel and experience things. I want to grow old with my husband and spend our lives together. I want to see my son grow up. I want to build a house, get a tattoo, get my pHd. There are so many things I want to do in life and my biggest fear is not being able to do them.

I never would have guessed that I would be so afraid of that. But there I was, stuck in the elevator, nervous that it was going to crash, thinking about all the things I haven’t done yet wondering if I was ever going to do them. As soon as those doors opened, I was so relieved I almost cried. I didn’t but there it was.

So there is the story of my life changing event and what I’m afraid of!! Stay tuned for more posts!

Catching up

So my attempts to start a blog failed miserably. I thought if I gave myself a list of things to post about, it would help me get it going along. Obviously I was wrong. Life with a brand new baby is more time consuming than I ever could have imagined. Now that he’s a little older, we have finally gotten him on a schedule, sleeping through the night. I actually have free time in the evenings now!

In other exciting news, I found a job! It’s three days a week at a real estate management firm. I never realized how great part time is for moms. It’s just enough that I feel like I’m getting out and having a life of my own but not so much that I’m missing my little man all the time. We still get plenty of time together but now he gets to spend 3 days with grandma and papi!!

So the 31-day blog challenge that I started….I left off at the subject of favorite quote. Honestly it stumped me. I was hoping I could come up with something profound and life altering. But, alas, I couldn’t find anything that really struck home for me. I gave up on finding something profound and just went with something that struck a cord with me. I think the best I could find was a quote from Dr. Seuss:

“You can find magic wherever you look. Sit back and relax, all you need is a book.”

When I was little, I hated to read. I could never sit still long enough to read one page let alone a whole book. My mother was devastated. She loved to read and always hope I would enjoy it to. Something that we could share. As I got older, I started to enjoy it a little more. I was able to read and enjoy books but I wasn’t a diehard book lover. Honestly it wasn’t until I was in grad school that I discovered my love for reading. I mean who wants to read about marketing strategies when you can be whisked away to far away lands and go on crazy adventures? At this point, I mostly just re-read books I had already read trying to relive the adventure….especially since, who has the time to go to the library in grad school and actually take out new books to read? Once I was out of grad school, and started working, I invested in an iPad and the whole book world was at my fingertips. I mean classic books are available to you for free!!! And you can connect to the library and take books out. It’s just an amazing the capabilities I have to go anywhere in the world and still stay sitting in my chair.

Moral of the story: books are awesome and everyone should read when they have the chance.